Life tilt

Sorry for the lack of news since 2 weeks. Actually I was not feeling really good, I'm struggling with my poker and didn't feel in the mood of writing on my blog.

There are several facts :
1. I'm a loosing player since 3 months when I turned pro
2. Emotionaly my results impact way too much my life
3. I still love the game as a pro

1. & 2. are bothering me but 3. is encouraging to keep playing and working hard

Psycologically I think I'm still too weak. Bad luck affected me so much that I was feeling quite depressed and it impacted my day to day life with my family.
Last week-end internet went down so I was not able to play online during 3 days. And guess what, I felt sooooo good.

If I feel depressed because of poker I should stick with a normal job. So I have definitely to improve my feelings regarding short term results. I am running bad ? Wtf ! I should not care if I play good !

My BR, stucked close to 10K$ mark since several weeks doesn't allow me much fantasy regarding games I can play. But I miss playing NL400 & NL600 games. Unfortunately lately every time I try to step up into these games I am facing some classic "bad luck" and I may play a little scared money.

So let's stop crying, time to grind !