Bye bye June !

I hope July will start the same way I ended June because today was really nice regarding poker.
I won +2.1K$, more than 10 BIs. Cool feeling !












Overall it's really hard for me to tell where I am for the month of June. I played a ton of hands on ongame network and lots of them were not imported in my tracker. So I think I am slightly down, something close to -1K$.

BR is about 12K$ right now, so I will need a really good July start if I want to get back to NL400 before the vacations in august.

I'll try in July to get back to a better "life balance". I spent way too much time on poker this month and it certainly didn't help my results. I know that I have bad habits : like most poker players, I play more when I have bad results than when I have good ones !

Last week I also had a internet breakdown during 3 days. So at night I spent few hours playing at the "Aviation Club de France". I made almost 500 € there so I think I will try again to change my mind.

Highway to bankrupt ?

Well, to reply to some comment for my last post : "do I ever win ?"
The answer is : "no"
Worse of all, I'm starting to play bad (or should I say worse than before) and that's really alarming !
I didn't play during the week-end, I came back to lose 2.5 BI today, that will make a -1K$ loss for the last sessions












Forget it, I will never admit I'm a loosing player !

Fighting day !

Wow, I don't remember playing so many hands for a long long time. Unfortunately I lost again today. I was down -1.1K$ at the beginning and manage to climb back to +400$ before screwing my session and finish at -408$












I don't deserve much better today because I made some horrible plays. I aslo won a 200 bb pot with KK vs AA all-in preflop so I can't complain this time.

My 5 biggest pot lost today :

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Flopped set < flopped straight

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Squeeze with JJ facing QQ on a rag flop

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KK < QQ

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I'm not satified with my play here. I don't beat anything in his range here exept a bluff. Checking the river would have been correct I think

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Classic udner vs over set

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I can do it too :)

I really fought all day trying to stay calm. Every time I was loosing a big pot, I would bang my table and was ready to shut down the computer. But everytime I succeded recovering my mind and I could play longer.
I think when I climb back over 0 tonight I had some "winning tilt" where I was over confident. I called 3bet with marginal hands and I also made some stupid "hero" calls when my opponent had the nuts.
This game is really giving me tough time right now, but as usually if I can go through this bad time I will be much stronger.

Poker wasn't fun today

Since I have to play NL200 I try to grind a lot. Today I was able to play more than 5K hands
And all that work for an horribke result : -1.2K$ loss (6 BIs) !












I really tried to do my best today. I kept focused on my game and avoided big mistakes. For sure there are some crying calls I could have avoided, and I surely missed few valuebets.

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Vilain is passive so I should I give is CR more credit. Fucking ace ! Without him I would have quitely checked this river :(

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AKs < AKc...

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AK never wins !

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AA neither...

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Flopped set < Rivered straight

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DP vs set

So not really huge bad beats, but I have a ton of 50-70bb lost pots like that.

Poker wasn't fun today !

Life tilt

Sorry for the lack of news since 2 weeks. Actually I was not feeling really good, I'm struggling with my poker and didn't feel in the mood of writing on my blog.

There are several facts :
1. I'm a loosing player since 3 months when I turned pro
2. Emotionaly my results impact way too much my life
3. I still love the game as a pro

1. & 2. are bothering me but 3. is encouraging to keep playing and working hard

Psycologically I think I'm still too weak. Bad luck affected me so much that I was feeling quite depressed and it impacted my day to day life with my family.
Last week-end internet went down so I was not able to play online during 3 days. And guess what, I felt sooooo good.

If I feel depressed because of poker I should stick with a normal job. So I have definitely to improve my feelings regarding short term results. I am running bad ? Wtf ! I should not care if I play good !

My BR, stucked close to 10K$ mark since several weeks doesn't allow me much fantasy regarding games I can play. But I miss playing NL400 & NL600 games. Unfortunately lately every time I try to step up into these games I am facing some classic "bad luck" and I may play a little scared money.

So let's stop crying, time to grind !

Back to sickness

Awfull ! I thought this month would be more quiet, forget it !
-2.3K$ for a -11BI downswing

Back to normal

Unfortunately I was not able to maintain my awesome starting NL200 winrate.
I had some weird swings : -7BIs, +15BIs, -7BIs,+5BI... Strange. I notice that I didn't play as well as during the week, maybe I thought this limit was so easy that I could just "robotly" play. Starting tomorow I will have to focus again to my game.
So during the last 3 days I still played a ton, some 12K hands ! And won about +1K$













I've decided to continue grinding NL200. But if I make the same week as last one I could shot NL400 soon.

Brag : Tomorrow I don't know id I'll play a lot since I return to gym and I'll go buy a new toy : a reflex camera Pentax K20D

Grinding NL200

After 3 days grinding NL200 I wonder if I should come back to NL400 :)
Well, I have obviously runned very well but the field was so soft that I think NL200 for me has to be +EV$ compared to NL400 since my winrate must be more than twice bigger.














Overall I won a nice +5.5K$ ! Even if y BR is now much healthier I think I will stay a little more in NL200 since the players allow me to make nice profits for the moment. Maybe I'll try some NL400 this week-end when the field are softer.
I should maybe slowdown a little bit as I have averaged 4K hands per day, and this didn't let me much time to do other things than playing poker. It's now 2 weeks I haven't gone to the gym :(

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AK > KK :D (told you I ran good...)

NL100 soon ?

-1.2K$ (6 NL200 BIs)
Good news : I haven't tilted. Only bad luck (is this really good news ?)

Poker is so tough right now, I wonder when I will be back on a winning track.
I don't want to take a break because I know that this will make me tilt much more if I keep running bad when I get back to the tables.
Only one solution : keep playing and KEEP CALM ! Luck should one day reappear...

Remember : Poker is a long long long long term game...